“If you really believe in what you’re doing, work hard, take nothing personally and if something blocks one route, find another. Never give up.”
These past few weeks have been really long and stressful for me. I think most teachers would agree with me that this is a tough time of year. I am trying to teach, get my classroom packed up, and enjoy the end of the year. It feels impossible. I am glad that I try to be the relaxed person at work. I cannot handle too much stress so I take a deep breath and just let it fall into place. I think it is working. I am helping the girls pack up their rooms because we are all moving…ummm what fun!
Running! I did the Chase Corporate Challenge on Tuesday. I never figured out why it is 3.5 miles instead of the standard 5k. Does anyone know why that is? I think I had too much pressure. I was trying to do well because I was really good last year. I was the top girl scorer and my district won fourth place out of everyone for the female teams. I thought that was awesome and I did not let it get to my head. I finished in just over 25 minutes so that was my goal this year. However, the heat was not wonderful. I think that I was frying on a skillet. I wanted to die. It was 93 degrees and people were passing out. I went into a haze and I think it freaked me out. I also was nervous because I felt like I had to do well and when I did not at the end of the night I felt like my boss was disappointed in me. I still feel a little disappointed. In a way, I wish I had not signed up because I want to run for fun and it was just too much. The article in the corporate challenge section put a huge weight on my shoulders and I heard about it for most of the year. I want to go back out there and do better, but it just wasn’t safe. The other girl I work with had to stop running because she saw her fiancé passed out on the ground. He ended up in the hospital overnight and I heard it was so bad they ran out of ambulances. I wish they would have canceled it.
I did warm up before the run and I felt alright. I did not use my compression sleeves because it was just really too hot. I finished in 26:40 on my watch, but I think it was a glitch because the clock time read a disgusting 28 minutes. Yuck that is slow! That is three minutes slower than last year. I want a redo!!!!!!!
Today is Friday and it is a beautiful day. I am looking forward to the end of the day. I am running the relay for the Ironman in Syracuse. My team is getting together for the meeting tonight and check in at Jamesville Beach. Everyone is making a big deal about these royal men from Bahrain who have more than one wife and are running and have tons of money. I think it is great they are athletic and I saw they do a lot of charity work. I hope people can see past their heritage and do not boo them during the competition. I confess I would never be interested in them because they have money and are royalty. Neither one of those qualities is something I would want in a relationship. I am finding that some of the most rich people are rich in heart rather than rich in their wallets. I was married to someone with a lot of money and that did not go over well in the marriage and money can never buy love. I confess it was nice to go to two summer homes on the lakes. I loved swimming in Skaneateles lake and I loved sailing…but it was not the marriage. At the end of the day, we are all just people…living under the same sky. I wish we would reach a point some day where we are all thinking this…Back to the race, I am soooooooo excited!!!!
I hope we do well and my swimmer is phenomenal! Her name is Kim and she swims in college at Nazareth!!!!! We did the Ironman two years ago and hope to come back with a vengeance! I just got a new biker for our relay thanks to an awesome person!!!!!!!!! I cannot wait and I hope he has a fun time. I want to get top three, but I know that we will have fun and that should be our focus! After Sunday, I have four more days of work (one half day with kids and one day with staff included). I hope it goes by fast and I am a little annoyed we have not found out about who is teaching ESL summer school. It is June 20th!!!!!! Oh well. I think I will sit this one out again. I hate last minute and like I said, I do not like stress.
I will run, cycle, and swim I hope. I signed up for the Gillie Girl Triathlon in July on the 19th. I hope it is fun and I do not drown in the water. I wish I could have a ton of support for it because my hydrophobia is really bad. I wish there was something I could do to just magically forget about it…but that is not possible!!!!!!! I need to overcome my fears. I have been pretty strong and I think no one would disagree with that statement If they knew me…so a snapping turtle should not get in my way. So here is my confession. Part of the reason I have enjoyed running at the canal is to see the turtles. I think seeing them and how cute they can be has helped a little. On the other hand, I am still just as horrified as to how friggan big they get!!!!!! I want to keep running and I do not want them to eat my toes!!!!!!!!!! I am scared and that is alright. I need to get over it and move on because I think doing triathlons and duathlons could be a lot more fun than just a run.
I feel like a lot of people can run. Many people can do a half marathon and not a lot of people do the full marathon. I also want to do an ultra, which most people think is crazy. I think doing a duathlon is a lot of fun, but I want the challenge of the triathlon. Someday, I want to do the full ironman on my own. I think that would be a big accomplishment. I will not quit my relay team though ha ha ha…
So why settle for just being normal?
I want to be different. I decided in life you cannot wait for someone to say they think that you are great at something. You have to believe it yourself and realize that pushing yourself to your limits just makes you that much more amazing! I want to be the best that I can be…I want to feel amazing, not just running. Let’s see if I can do it…ps I miss biking this week…I am totally getting ready to get lost on a 100 mile ride on that sweet bike of mine!!!!!